Hi friend! Welcome back to my channel. Just kidding, but it’s been a while. Since June 2021. It is insane to me how much can happen in a year. Even 3 months. I would not imagine I would be where I am or have gone through the things that I have.

In June of 2021, my grandma passed away. I got to graduate (more-so walk, since I technically graduated in 2020). It was not how I imagined my graduation, but my life hardly ever goes the way I imagine it.

In July of 2021, I was sexually harassed in my place of work. I ended up getting a lot of anxiety from this. For the first time in my life, I got drunk. This was a new low for me. My pain was evident. I could no longer hide how I was feeling on the inside. To others, it may have been amusing but if you ask God, it definitely grieved the Spirit.

In August of 2021, I got into an argument with my little sister. Although it didn’t ruin our relationship right away, this argument shook our foundation. I also got into a relationship, which thankfully I am no longer in because it was not healthy at all.

In September of 2021, I started going to the gym consistently. Learning to push past being too tired or feeling lazy has been rewarding. I could not picture myself ever saying this, but exercise really helps you feel better. I have learned to keep going and not give up no matter the pain.

In October of 2021, I got a new job. This was a miracle because I was already feeling uncomfortable at my job due to the person who harassed me. It was also a miracle because I got a job working remotely, which is something I have been praying about since 2018. The way God has graced me for this position is wild. I am so grateful.

In November of 2021, I hit a new level of rock bottom. I put myself in danger’s way. I had completely isolated myself from everyone at this point. I ignored every conviction.

In December of 2021, another argument with my little sister led our relationship taking a toll. We didn’t talk for months. I was blocked from her life completely. At first I was angry and bitter, but as time went by and things started changing in my life, those feelings went away. I am still praying and believing for complete restoration in our relationship.

In January of 2022, I got my dream dog. The journey with her has not been the easiest. I got her as a puppy, so I had to learn a lot with her along the way. I had to potty train her, teach her some obedience. I have had to learn discipline and routine. But I also almost had to give her up. There were arguments with my mom that my dog caused. This dog has somehow been used to test my patience and trust in God since having her.

In February of 2022, I turned 25. I hardly recognized myself anymore. Who I was at that time was not who I wanted to be. Where I was at the time was not where I should have been. Thank God I was still alive. Thank God He said He was not finished with me yet.

In March of 2022, there was a discontentment forming with my life. I owe everything to the Holy Spirit convicting me more and more. Whispering in my ear to come home. Soon enough it was hard to ignore that voice.

In April of 2022, I had the opportunity to travel to Morocco with my older sister. This trip impacted me in more than one way. I realized just how unsatisfied I was with everything in my life. How much I did not want my life to be my life. I did begin to feel a little depressed but I kept having to remind myself that God healed me from depression and suicidal thoughts.

In May of 2022, I made the decision to face all my worries and fears, and return home. I started attending church again. I fought my flesh so hard not to come home. I was so afraid that people would see me and see all the damage I had done to myself. That they would see me and see how messed up my home life was. They would see me and know all of my sins. Technically, you are reading a lot of them now. I am not ashamed of that because everything comes to the light eventually.

In June of 2022, I started getting connected and plugged back into church. I reconnected with a few friends. God was starting to remove everything that had kept me from Him. I also graduated from Bible College. Did I walk? No. Why? Because going up on stage scared the heck out of me. I was in the world and doing Bible college. Not very godly of me, right? I felt like a hypocrite. I was so filled with shame that I felt like I did not deserve to walk across that stage.

In July of 2022, my whole life completely shifted. I surrendered everything to God. I let go of a lot stuff, including that boyfriend I had. I was brought into complete repentance. My life did a 180. God was working overtime moving me out of isolation and what I thought was comfortable. He was pushing me towards obedience and complete surrender.

In August of 2022, my obedience and faith began to get tested with trial after trial. Earlier in July, I had to take a few tests health wise. August was about finding out those results and trusting God with them. I am believing I am healed the next time time I have to tested in 2023. This is something doctors do not have a cure for. I am trusting the One True Doctor to heal me.

In September of 2022, I found true contentment with my life. The trajectory of my life has completely changed and I cannot thank God enough. I began to write once again. I got a new opportunity at work, thank the Lord.

Here we are October of 2022, watching God do incredible miracles. My relationship with my little sister has drastically improved. I sought her forgiveness and have been able to work on mending our relationship. Things are getting a little hard health wise.So much that it wants to distract my mind. I am learning to take every thought captive. I went back to counseling, which I am grateful for. God has been showing me areas in my life that need Him and His healing power, so we’ve been doing some hard work here. But it has been good because He is good.

A tremendous amount of things have happened in my life. There are still 2 months left of 2022 and I still have about 3 months before I turn 26. I cannot wait to add to this later and see what else God has done. If there is anything I have learned is that the Lord  is so faithful and does not stop His pursuit of us. He is constantly calling us to greater. I know He is not done with me yet. He is not done with you yet. Heed His call, friend. You won’t regret it.