This girl is officially done with her undergrad! This morning, I would have sat in the heat with my friends. I would have been waiting to shake the hands of faculty as I walk across the stage. Waving at my family in the distance as my name gets called. Then trying to find them in crowd afterwards for pictures.

None of that happened today. Maybe one day. But I’m not that upset about it honestly. I know God has better plans than my own. As much as I try, I may never be able to make sense of this situation.

The same thing applies to other aspects of my life. Though I have endless questions, though I try to rationalize the situation, it may never make any sense.

Honestly, I am glad my life is not defined by moments like this. Getting a degree is no easy task. I do not take it for granted, but I am so glad I did not wrap my whole life around striving for a piece of paper. It is the journey that has made me who I am, not a degree.

There were countless of tears shed. Long nights. Early mornings. Break down after break down. Heartbreak after heartbreak. I wish I could say that I did it, but it really wasn’t just me.

My parents were along for the ride. Pushing me to give my best, praying for the mind battles to cease. I have had friends and mentors who have guided me and prayed for me as well. Most importantly, there was God.

He gave me the grace to sustain. When I was rocked, He remained my Rock. He became my firm foundation. I may be one degree hotter, but I am a thousand miles further from hell.

I am so grateful for His mercy, forgiveness, and relentless love. He gave me life. He gave me hope when I had none. Just when I thought my life was over, He whispered “I’m not done.”

I’m not even halfway done with my journey here on earth. Here’s to the next steps!