I never know how to address you after a long time away… But hello my friend. I have missed you dearly. I think about you every day. It kills me that my posts are few and far apart. We’re working on that. So much has happened in the last 11 months. I can’t believe it’s almost been a year. It’s not like I purposely stayed away.

In the last year, I have healed greatly from depression, anxiety, and many insecurities. I have learned to let go of people and the grudges I had against anyone who has hurt me. It has not been the easiest, and there are a lot of things I still need to work on. I can assure you I have come a long way.

This month has been scary. Scary because it has felt like everything I worked so hard to fight off came rushing back. It felt as if I forgot all I learned about fighting off the anxiety as it comes. The memories are still there. Fresh. They make it seem like the feelings never left.

The memories will always be there as a reminder of what God brought me out of. I just have to remember they’re not meant to bring about old habits. This is what the Bible talks about with being transformed by the renewing of our mind (Romans 12:2). Learning to pick and choose my thoughts as meticulously as my clothes. Create new memories. Good memories. Memories that know of only God’s goodness. 

I turned out okay a year ago and I’ll turn out okay this time. God has not left me, nor will He ever.