LIBERATION.

There was so much freedom this past week in Nicaragua. The sick were liberated from their illness. People were liberated from addictions, from strongholds. People who were possessed were liberated from their demons. Nicaragua has been liberated from its reputation. Thousands of people across the nation found freedom someway. Not only were Nicaraguans changed but so was every missionary, including myself.

To recap, before coming on this trip I felt incredibly inadequate. I was experiencing mind battles daily. There was so much on my mind that it felt like I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. This week, God wiped everything away. This week, I felt liberated from the past, from my insecurities, from weight I didn’t need to carry. I have never felt so much joy in my life. I have never felt more free. I danced like never before. I sang like never before. God used me like never before. What happened on this trip for me was completely unexpected.

I never realized I was living like the Amy before she got freed from depression, before God took control of her life. The depression was gone but not the anxiety. The mind battles were present. I still lived with certain labels on myself. God revealed Himself like never before. He revealed Himself as King. I was praying God would make Himself King over all of Nicaragua but I wasn’t letting Him be King over every area of my life! I wasn’t letting Him be the King of my thoughts. So He broke me.

He broke me to remove every weight, every label, every doubt, every insecurity. He removed the old me. Now I freely walk as the Amy God designed me to be. I am a whole new person. This person was waiting to come out, waiting to shine completely. It started with realizing who my God is. My God is freedom. My God is healing. My God is love. My God is peace. My God is joy. My God is compassionate. My God is good. My God is mighty. My God is King.

Nicaragua and its future generations will know God as its King just as I have come to know Him as mine. Nicaragua is liberated! I am liberated!