“No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us” (Romans 8:37 NLT).
March is coming to an end and I can’t help but look back on all the wonderful things God has done this month. If this March had a theme verse, it would be Romans 8:37. Granted, March has been extremely difficult; the difficulties only emphasized His goodness. This month, I was overwhelmed by midterms and other schoolwork, memories of my past and the struggle to let go, conflict between a family member, plus my current emotions and fears.
Despite all these difficulties, the love of my Father brings redemption. He has spoken and shown His relentless love over me. Times of trouble will come, but victory that overwhelms me is mine solely because Christ loves me. Two years ago, I felt like I had to compete for the love of a guy. This year, God has shown me that I have no need to be insecure about His love. I have no rival when it comes to God’s love for me. With Christ being the standard of how my future husband is supposed to be, I know I will never have to compete for my husband’s love and attention. I don’t even need to be a certain way in order to get God’s attention. I literally just have to be how I am, completely still and open to Him. He’ll take it from there.
He has already done that. The last three months have been nothing but Him taking control of my life. It has led to amazing things and it is just the beginning. My obedience has allowed Him to use me to speak life into young women. To speak in front of a class and give my testimony in April. To be part of a summer camp that changed my life and see it do the same to others this June. To go to Nicaragua in July on a missions trip. And this is just some stuff… My God has brought me so far in one year, even three months.
I am more secure in who I am and whose I am. I still have the same likes and dislikes as the Amy in December. I still look the same. There is just major change taking place in my head and my heart. I now march to the beat of a different drum. It hurts leaving the comfort and familiarity of the past. I often miss the people and moments; but there is a peace of mind, heart, and soul I’m finding that wasn’t found in those times and places of my past. I do not regret the past. Not a single second of my past is wasted. God is using all that for good. My future looks good, great, amazing!
20 is already looking amazing…