I started my second year of college today. Today was the start of a new major. Today I saw the people I will be working with for the next 16 weeks. I began a new season in my life. I was honestly quite scared all last night and this morning. On my way to school, I just prayed and talked to God about all that I will be facing in the coming months. 

For a while I kept wondering if all these changes I’ve been making in my life are even the right choices. They’ve felt like mistakes. To my small human brain, it made no sense. For a while, it has felt like I’m walking in circles with no direction. On Sunday, I learned that sometimes when it feels like I’m just walking in circles, I can mistake my wandering with my obedience. I have to believe that I am walking in obedience. It is not going to make any sense in this world but it makes all the sense in the spiritual world.

I changed my major for a reason. I applied and got accepted into bible college for a reason. I have no idea what my life will look like after I graduate. I don’t even know what it will look like 6 months from now. I know for a fact these next few months will be challenging. I went up a level and I know I will experience “new devils.” I am human, so I will definitely let fear take over and keep me from taking another step. I know I’m going to experience storms and valleys. The main thing I asked the Lord this morning was to keep me from retracing my steps. I don’t want to fall as hard as I fell last year.

Despite all that, I choose to remain confident in my God. I know His hands are all over my life. He covers me. He carries me. He will steer me in the right direction. When I start to drift, I know He will pull me back into His arms. I’m am walking where the Lord has walked. He goes before me. He has a purpose for me. I’m going to keep walking. Especially when people tell me I made a mistake in changing majors or that I’ll never get an actual job with my degree. Especially when people don’t understand why I am in bible college. Especially when people say my ideas are far-fetched. Especially when I feel discouraged. That is when I will push harder, fight harder, trust harder.

I am trusting God with my present and my future. With my whole life. God is so worthy of my trust. He’s never going to fail me. This journey won’t be easy, but it will definitely be worth it. I trust that what He has for me is far great for me to totally fathom. I know I was born for such a time as this. I know this season will bring more learning, more pruning, more growth. So here’s to this next season. Here’s to the adventure of a lifetime.