“And what is the seed that fell among the thorny weeds? That seed is like the person who hears the teaching but lets worries about this life and the temptation of wealth stop that teaching from growing. So the teaching does not produce fruit in that person’s life.” [Matthew 13:22]

So much of our lives involves learning to let go. Everything in life is temporary. The people we meet, the places we visit, the things we own. We grow such a strong attachment to things that will soon leave us. We even tend to leave things at our own will. There is so much distraction from petty things. From temporary things. I mean yes, enjoy them before they fade, but don’t depend on such things. God wants us to depend on solely Him. Why do we insist on depending on things that will quickly fade? 

It is so unnecessary to worry. To fully surrender myself, to fully take up my cross, involves letting go of the doubt. It involves letting go of the fear. I have to rely on God with no hesitance. If I don’t allow myself to put all my trust and faith in God, what good is it? I’m not progressing in life. I’m not progressing spiritually. I’m not going to place God wants me to dwell in. God wants me to dwell in Him. All the things He has to offer are good. I shouldn’t be scared of losing this or that. God can give it back to me ten times better if I really desired it.

God wants me to bloom. He wants to be the Gardener of my life. He wants to work on the soil. He wants to shower me in all He has to offer. He wants to be my Light. He wants me. He deserves me. All 90 lbs of me. Whether I’m completely shattered, extremely lost, or insane in the membrane. He wants me just as I am so He can work on me. He wants to make me so much better. All He wants is for my will to be His will. For my to wholeheartedly say, “Yes Lord, have Your way in me. Let Your will be done, not mine. My life is Yours. I set my gaze on You.”

Lord, there are so many things that distract me from You. All of these things I need to let go of. They cannot hold me back from serving You. I don’t want to be tied down to anything. You sent Your Son to die on the cross so that I could be free. I pray these shackles break off my feet. I want to praise You at the end for such breakthrough. I should be praising You now for all the work You are doing. I want to leave all worry, doubt, and fear behind. I don’t want them to hold me hostage. I want to solely depend on You. You bring food to my table. You put a roof over my head. You provide transportation. You cover my finances. You are behind it all. I put my faith in You. I trust that only good will come out of the circumstances I fall under. You have a plan. It is already being done. May it continue to be done. You fulfill Your promises. Reap what You must, sow what You will. Consume every inch of me. My life is Yours. Make this heart Your home. Captivate this heart. Inundate my thoughts. I set my sight on You.