It is Thanksgiving; I think it’s funny how we make such a big deal out of one day. We shouldn’t just give thanks today, but every day. There is so much to be thankful for every single day of our lives. This isn’t is a rant about people being ungrateful 364 days of the year, I promise. I actually want to take the time to talk about all that I am grateful for.

I am grateful for the last year. So much has happened, and I am forever molded by it. It hasn’t been an easy year. It hasn’t exactly been my year either. An ocean of tears were shed. A storm of pain was felt. But there was definitely a lot of laughs and smiles. There was a lot of special moments that made life feel so magical. I am blessed by all the events this past year. I would take any back. I learned a lot through them.

I am grateful for the friends I have. I have been in rare communication with them, and that’s such a tragedy. But I know they still gladly accept contact if I were to do try. At least that’s true for 9 out of 10 of them, the one being my best friend unfortunately. They are the greatest people I have ever met. So humble and wise. All 10 of them are incredible people. I am so blessed to call each one of them my friends. They bless the earth with their presence. Each one so perfect to me. I love them all. I miss them all. I’m not always the greatest friend, especially because I don’t always contact them, but I do feel their regards towards me. They accept me the way I am. I accept them the way they are. I have learned a lot from them. I am grateful for these beautiful people. I am grateful for the friends I lost along the way, as well.

I am grateful for my family. My relationship with all of them has changed incredibly. I am now a lot closer to my parents. Although not always said, I know my sisters love me and I hope they know that I love them. I feel my parents concern now more than ever. I’m trying to give into their worries. I’m trying to be more open with them. I’m trying to let them in on what is happening inside this head of mine. I’m trying to be more sincere and love on them before time runs out. I’m not affectionate towards them, but I definitely am learning to be. They are wonderful people. Constantly giving, even without expecting anything in return. I am so grateful they were chosen to guide me in this world.

I am grateful for myself. I have grown so much. I have learned so much. I have changed so much. I am grateful for the love I have. I am grateful for the sliver of strength that I have. I am grateful for the sliver of hope I have. I am grateful for my resilience. I am grateful for my heart. I am grateful that I have been made just the way I am. I’m grateful for my scars. For they are reminders of the places I have been, the places I have endured. I am grateful for my life. I always believed I was immortal. Death was never something I was afraid of, but now it is. Life is a maybe. Death is for sure. I am so grateful I have been able to live this long. I appreciate my life immensely. Every day is a gift from my God up above. 

I give all my thanks to God. I am grateful for everything He has given me. I am grateful that He has allowed me to live this long. I am grateful He has placed me in this exact spot. I am grateful for this learning process. I am grateful that I get to see Him move in my life. I am grateful for His unconditional love. For His relentless, unfailing, never-ending love. I am grateful for Calvary. He gave up His son to save my life. His son came to Earth for the sole purpose of saving me from a cruel fate. He has transformed my destiny. I am destined for greatness. Sitting here, thinking about Calvary makes me realize how silly it is to fear death. If I choose to give my life back to Christ, to follow Him, and obey Him, eternal life in Him is my reward. I am immortal after all. So I have nothing to fear. My flesh may wither away (I prefer it be cremated when I pass), but my soul will live on forever with my Lord. The burdens life brings become less heavy. I am grateful my God wants to carry that weight for me. He wants to be my Rock, my Foundation, my Strength. He wants me to trust in Him. He makes all things work together for my good. He never causes me to feel pain I can’t stand. He loves me. I love Him. I am grateful for the type of God He is. He is good. So so so good. He teaches me so much. He helps me grow and become the woman He has called me to be. My life and love is all His. My God is great.

I am thankful for all of you who read this. I am grateful for everyone I have ever had the chance to interact with. I’m now going to go and tell a couple people how much I love them. Give thanks; there has to be at least one thing you’re grateful for. Enjoy your friends, enjoy your family, enjoy yourself tonight. Happy Thanksgiving!