Have you ever done something that you seriously question your motives from that moment? 

Like what exactly what was I thinking at that very moment? How did I bring myself to such a place? Didn’t I know it can go one of two ways? How worth it was that moment of bliss?

I am sincerely content with a lot of the choices I make. Sometimes, I make really poor choices. Sometimes, I beat myself up for such foolish decisions made. Sometimes, I’m think to myself, “Eh, it’s a learning process,” and consider that decision no big deal. Sometimes, I get incredibly mad at whatever/whoever else was involved. Sometimes, I regret things. 

I don’t want to regret anything. I’m learning not to regret anything. I got myself in such positions. Most of the situations that I place myself by poor choices could have been avoided obviously. I have to learn to live with those decisions. I can’t sulk or whine about whatever happened. That moment has passed and I must move on. I can’t just sit here and let life pass me by. Things could be a lot worse. I have to get up and face whatever else comes my way. 

Certain predicaments reoccur because we haven’t learned from them. I must learn from what happened and grow. I am learning. I am growing.

P.S.

Yesterday I received an email of acceptance from CSULA! Very excited for school now and realizing it was the impatience tripping me out. Thank you to everyone who knew I would make it when I didn’t think I would.