And just like that, quarter one of 2026 comes to an end. The winter is gone and spring is here. The last three months have completely transformed me. God has wrecked me and is still doing so. I was never expecting to have this many cries in three short months (LOL). Participating in a discipleship program at church just made way for a flood of introspection to be made.

Thank You, Jesus, for not leaving me how You found me, but bro… can You please chill? :)))

As I open up and make new friends, it has forced me to reveal myself to them. It has forced me to ask: Who is Amy? What makes her, her? Who is she at her core? How does she communicate? How does she feel seen and known and loved? What are her habits? What is the environment that has shaped her? In asking those questions, God has also shown me my true self.

The difference between today and two years ago, is the love I feel from Jesus. Two years ago, I had similar thoughts of who am I? What am I doing? Am I worthy of love? What are these choices I keep making? Why has my life gone in this direction? Two years ago, these questions were a form of self-sabotage and me just listening to the lies. Today, they are questions of reflection and transformation; to get me to move from who I was and who God wants me to become.

I have seen His love wrap me up every so tightly. His grace guide me ever so carefully. His mercy mend my brokenness. And His peace comfort me amidst the waves. So, winter is truly gone. Spring is here and life is flourishing. As much as my timeline for these last 3 months has been completely out of my hands, I am learning to embrace His pace. He is surprised by nothing and has impeccable timing. I couldn’t have spring without the cold winter, or the pruning, or the storms. I can’t have the summer sun without the spring rain. April showers bring May flowers.

A question I am forced to keep asking myself is: If God were to give me what I so deeply desired today, would I have learned everything I needed to? If I am honest, I won’t reach perfection until His coming and transformation will be ongoing on this side of eternity. So maybe I won’t ever learn absolutely everything I need to; but as He moves in me, I think I’ll definitely be more prepared to handle His promises. And with greater care. So if you need me, I’ll be in the field with Jesus watching the flora of my life sprout and bloom.