For the month of January, I went completely under the radar. I logged off of my Instagram, Snapchat, and blog. All this was done for a reason. If you recall from my last post, I talked about how before Jesus began his ministry, He was led into the wilderness for forty days and forty nights and how “coincidentally” I was on winter break for forty days. It really wasn’t a coincidence though…

During Jesus’ time in the wilderness, he fasted from food. Being off social media was my way of fasting because I can’t afford to go without eating. I had to fast alongside my church for twenty one days, but I started early. I started January 1st and went all the way until yesterday, the 31st. Before school started, I found different ways to occupy myself since I was practically off my phone. I read the Bible. I did a daily devotional. I was praying. I also was physically writing since I could not get on my blog. I went to work with my parents, hung out with friends from church, and even took up sewing.

I learned a lot about self-control during this time. I learned a lot about what it means to trust God even when it feels like He’s paying no attention to my struggle. Because in reality, He is right there with me in everything, calming every storm inside and around me. He knows exactly how I feel, what I go through, and He provides an everlasting comfort. I feel our relationship has proven strong enough to endure anything that is thrown at me. I know I will be tested on that statement, too.

I just started both bible college and regular school. In a week, I’ll be starting my women’s connect group. I’m excited to see how much more growing and stretching God will do to me during this time. I have no idea of all the trials and blessings that are to come. I do know my life is most secure in His hands, with Him in total control. He is worthy of my trust and deserves to be sought after first. Being human means I’m likely to stumble, but I know my God is merciful enough to pick me right back up and let me try again. That is how His grace works, providing me with the strength in areas where I need it most.