Since August, I have been seeing a psychiatrist. I don’t understand entirely why saying I see one has such a negative connotation to it. An old friend did not support me seeing one. I was seeing one for extra guidance. Things have been so rough for the past year. I wanted professional help, but I didn’t get it until things started getting worse. You can argue that it’s 100% my fault as to how bad things got. Personally, I’d put about a good 60% on other things than myself. So much was affecting me. So much is still affecting me today, but things are different now. I’ve taken a stand. I’m putting an end to the amount of pain I let people inflict on me. I’m putting an end to the amount of pain I inflict on myself. I was on medication to help with my depression and anxiety. Ever since I’ve put my good foot forward, I haven’t found a need to take them.

I went to see my psychiatrist today. I told him about everything I’ve felt since I last saw him in October. I told him about the pain and sadness, and in return he advised me. It was great advice. I told him how I want to put the pain of the past to rest and move forward. He saw the genuine feel for change. In that moment, he decided I was better, which I really was. I didn’t need him to tell me, but I loved hearing someone agree with me. He discontinued my medication and told me I was ready to take on the world. He said I didn’t have to go back and see him, but to message him if I ever needed anything. Honestly, it was the greatest thing ever hearing that I was mentally strong enough. I’m becoming emotionally strong, too.

I’m on the road to recovery. I have vomited out all the lies I’ve been fed. I’m being made new. I’m doing better. I’m learning. I’m pruning. I’m growing. My wounds are healing. I’m no longer relying on medication or a psychiatrist. I’m relying 110% on my God. My Healer. My Doctor. My Medicine. My Comforter. The Prince of Peace. I’m seeking God constantly in the midst of my problems. Yearning to be in His presence. Only He can help me through my trials. My trials don’t end, but I have the confidence to overcome. To triumph. I’m only a victor because I have the Lord on my side. God is fighting my battles for me. I’m not alone. Neither are you…