“The Lord replied, ‘Look around at the nations; look and be amazed! For I am doing something in your own day, something you wouldn’t believe even if someone told you about it.’” [Habakkuk 1:5]

“Sing to God; sing praises to his name. Prepare the way for him who rides through the desert, whose name is the Lord. Rejoice before him. God is in his holy Temple. He is a father to orphans, and he defends the widows. God gives the lonely a home. He leads prisoners out with joy, but those who turn against God will live in a dry land.” [Psalms 68:4-6]

Today was amazing. I was finally able to hang out with a female friend since October. I loved talking to her. Our perspective on having a relationship with God is the same. I love being able to connect with someone in person like that. We share the same vision for the youth and for the world. We just want God to use us and be glorified and for others to see the God we see. God wants to do great things in her life. He wants to do great things in my life. I may not know what they are exactly or how I will be used and where I will be used, but I do know I want God to have His way in my life. I want all the great things He has in store for me. I want to fully trust Him with my life.

I shouldn’t be afraid of what God says He wants to do for me. He wants to change my life for the better. Being His doesn’t mean living a strict and boring life. Every day is a new day filled with new ways to be used by God. I don’t ever want to lose my wonder. I want to constantly stand in awe of God. He wants me to be amazed at His beauty. He wants me to praise Him for all that He could do in my life. He has a plan and purpose in my life. I don’t know how many times I have to keep saying that, but I will until it forever is engraved in my heart. I am designed in the image of God. I want to live in that design. Whatever blueprints He has for me, I want them to be made real. I’m not able to help how I came into this world but I can change how I leave it. I don’t want my future to die. I want it to live fruitfully in God’s hands.

God wants to take my lost soul and restore it. God wants to take my broken heart and mend it. God wants to turn my sadness into singing. God wants me to flourish like the flower that I am. He wants me to realize I have a home in Him. I am no longer an orphan, but I am adopted as His own. I don’t want to do things my own way because that only leads to failure and disappointment and zero satisfaction. If I submit to my loving Father, I will never be disappointed. I cannot be afraid to trust Him. I have to open up my heart to Him because unlike the world, He never rejects me. He wants the best for me. I want what He wants for me.

Father, I have something to offer to the world. Something You have given me. Something I want to put to use. Use me. Have Your way in me. I am not defined by my limitations, my shortcomings, or anything I can’t do. I have been given gifts that I want to put to great use. Show me the proper way to use these gifts. I only want to use them to glorify You. What’s the point of having these gifts if I just want to glorify myself? Guide me in the right direction. Open doors where I can use these gifts. Give me the strength and courage. Throw away my laziness. Engrave within me who I am. I am a seeker of peace. A servant for the needy. I am light in the darkness. I am loved. I am beautiful. I am more precious than rubies. I am saved. I am Your child. I have a future. I am a new creation. I am no longer an orphan. I am free. I’m no slave to sin. I’m a saint. I am righteousness. I am alive!