“’But forget all that—it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.’” [Isaiah 43:18-19]

“Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones.” [Proverbs 3:8]

The last few days were pretty hectic. I barely found time to sit at my computer and type this out. Everything was going pretty well up until yesterday. Some things happened. I wish I could take that person’s pain away. I wish I could take their sadness away. I want them to see they deserve happiness. They’re mind is so fixed on a particular thought. It seems like I don’t have the resources to make those feelings disappear. It doesn’t feel like what I do is enough. I’m force me to repeat these verses in my head. There was a huge ray of light that came through a window of opportunity and it was wonderful. Then curtains fell down and the room grew dim. Hope seems lost. Recovery seems far. But God wants to smash all the negativity.

God wants me to understand the old and things of the past are no more. God wants to do something new in my life. He already is doing it. He makes everything new. He turns the bitter into sweet. What seems lost to the dark, will be found. There will be a garden growing once more. Cleansing water will pour down and wash away all the pain. Love will cover the wounds. All will heal. I will be made stronger. The same applies for my relationships. There is an opportunity for light to peak in the dark. Light can break the darkness. There is hope. I am called to receive that hope and bring it to others.

Abba, Healer, Comforter, Prince of Peace, Ruler over all, I need You now more than ever. I need You running this race with me. I need Your support. I need You as my backbone. I need Your encouragement. I need Your peace. I need Your hope. I cannot do it alone. I cannot ask You to perform miracles and fix my problems with a snap of Your finger. I have to put in work. I have to do my part. I have to discipline myself. You forgave my past so I can step into my future. My future has so much good in store. I want that. I want to see others be blessed with the fruit I produce. I don’t want anyone to fall into sorrow, instability, anger, frustration, impatience. I want the ones I love to be filled with peace, joy, and love. You heal all the wounds through Calvary. I am free from my past. I want to follow in Your footsteps. I am Your child after all. Give me passion and endurance to do the these I’m called to do. I know what I must do. I have all the resources to keep going. I cannot and will not give up. I have to keep pushing, keep fighting. I will finish this race. I will get to where You placed me. All is and shall be well.