December has been quite rough. It was honestly such a month of growth. I overcame several hurdles, which I am so grateful for. The Lord gave me the greatest amount of strength. I honestly couldn’t have gotten over those hurdles if I had’t let Him take care of it. I have seen such transformation within myself that I would have never imagined.

New hurdles also arose. I am doing all I can to move past them. Making the choice to give every battle to God doesn’t automatically take every struggle away. It doesn’t mean life automatically goes my way. There is going to be rain, but rain always means green. I’m going to grow even more than I already have. I am a work in progress. I may never arrive but I am constantly becoming. My struggles are nothing compared to the reward that lies ahead.

I have no idea what lies ahead. I used to have my whole life planned out. I knew what I wanted and I knew how to get it. It was all about personal achievement. Everything may have turned upside down. I know that I want the blessing the Lord has in store for me. I want what the Lord wants for me. I may sometimes play the fool and think I don’t know how to get where God wants me to be. That’s just because I’ve blinded myself. I know what I need to do to get to where I’m supposed to be.

I am so happy where I am at because I am heading towards where I’ve always needed to be. It took a long time coming but my goodness, I’m happy it happened like this. I don’t regret anything. I wouldn’t take any of it back. I let myself get really dirty. This year was a year of slipping into muddy areas. But it’s now winter. Winter brings cold, but it also cleanses. I’m going to stay warmhearted through this cold season. The new year is coming. I get a new beginning. A clean slate. New year, new me. New year, same me. New year, better me.